It been a year since I lazy to go IMH for medical check up because that I am not confirmed diagnosis on ADHD which I am not puzzled that I found out that I am not the only one that encountered the same issues with IMH that I am not diagnosis with ADHD. 

NUH is trustable and I did true a research on the Brain Research Scanning which is damn cool that I had experienced first hand before that and some assessment that they had been testing me and Q n A 
Fair and Square my Scored is the highest 236  good thing is I got good memories. And the result are really accurate and test given by my Dr that I found through FB ADHD Unlocking that I ask for information and go try for the scanned. They test us on our reaction speed and also ascending to big number and also words memories. Surprisingly :) I passed it all the memories tests that they had tested me. When I am in calm down situation. 

It been 29 years since my kids days that I should had fond out that I got ADHD because I been failing all exams since kindergarten. 

Perhaps I  knew why my parents are fighting over me already since when I were young. I forgive my parents that maybe too they suffered this ADHD. 


This should be my disclosure of why my parent had fought one another might be cause they know that I am not a normal kids. 


When things get havord my brain are intense and had a lot of spiral thoughts .
Can't kept me focus on task in hand.  I know why I had been always been wrong order well working in my fine dinning experienced.Because my soul in flying other places already.
 

It been hurting to hear that I  got officially had ADHD  and  i knw why my situation is just kept repeating the same things and never stop on . 

And Start my medication on June 07 and that tone of money that I had to spent for my medication :( and it very expensive but that also for my own good and well being , I also know why my unhealthy emotion . Although I am not a smoker.

My unknown sister is also on medication on the past and now its my turn to face the musics. for my own well being.

Last but not least I don't take this as a excuses for my self for not working for my rest of my life that I had to  lan lan suck thumb to move on this journey that to see who supports me my side  

Thanks for whoever that is reading this blog and   who  stayed n  support me.